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Lucy's Blog Posts
my experience on here, how I am now and how this has all ultimately helped me. Firstyly I would like to apologise for not being involved a lot on here recently. I have been trying to sort myself out and some bits in my family. I have moved on from the Aaron thing but sometimes […]
Main message I get to write at the end. Basically about how I let myself feel exactly how I felt for the first time in years…and I’m not ashamed of it. I did one of the hardest things of my life yesterday. I actually admitted to myself that I had a huge problem with the […]
Just quickly Well Aaron broke up with me via a letter outside my door when staying at his today. I knew that I had fucked things up and I hate being right! My depression will haunt me for the rest of my life and I will grow old and lonely. I think I must accept […]
take the white pill you will feel alright….well the yellow and green pill!…it will all make sense later…its basically about my meds. So exams are near by and for some strange reason i just dont care about them! I will revise for them but right now it is the last thing that haunts my dark […]
everything is all going terribly wrong right now…i just want to cry constantly. self harming urges are sooo high and i just want to stay in bed all the time. i wish just at one point that life could be easy at one point life deals you shit cards and sometimes it gives you good […]
only a quick thing to say why I can’t comment right now My best friend is a schizophrenic. I love her dearly! And i would do anything to help her. Normally her schizophrenia isnt too bad. She has a lot of medication and gets on well with it. It doesnt rule her life. But right […]
how we all hate parts of ourselves and have thoughts that drive these issues…explaining how maybe we are not so different or strange as we have believed 1. I hate the way I look 2. I hate the fact I am slightly overweight and yet still eat loads 3. I hate how self pitying I […]
This is going to be a really quick blog, unlike my usual massive blogs! I have exams in a week and I am petrified. I want to run away. I can not concentrate and this is the least confident I think I have ever been. I want to quit and just do something else. This […]
ahh here we go again as I just accidently deleted my first attempt! Sorry for the next blog by the way! I know I blogged only yesterday but I really need to get all this pain and anxiety off my chest. everything is just getting on tolp of me right now and only at this […]
2010…lets hope things will get better Christmas wasnt as bad as I thought it would be. But the alcohol over the past few weeks has made me realise how shit it can make me feel. Usually I do this and can move on easily after. Unfortunately right now all I want to do is get […]
i feel like i am drowing. And i need to save myself. At the moment I have been finding everything a little difficult. The guy I mentioned before I still want to run away from. I am not able to commit to anything that takes a lot of effort right now. Even the thought of […]
Feeling extremely shit again. I had forgotten how this feels. I’m not sure why exactly but I am very much hitting the downer today. Everything seems to make me want to curl up in a ball and just cry my heart out. I had such a great weekend so I am not sure if the […]
Sometimes you have to run away to find yourself. This is a blog all about how I am “running away” to fix myself. This may sound weird or strange but it explores how falling out with my dad was the best thing for me and about how self harm is not the way and good […]
How I am excited about this year and how I believe it may lead to the beginning of the end of the stigma surrounding depression and also my own battle with it. As the beginning of uni draws near I am extremely excited. Soon I will be thrusted into uni life again and I will […]
How crying on the sofa could possibly change my life and perception of myself. I thought I would start in a slightly strange place, not how my depression started but how I first learnt about the blogring. I was sitting in my university counselling waiting room watching the fish as I always did. That week […]
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